How long will you run away, a fugitive from God?  I have wandered far, far away from God, and the call that he put upon me and the mission that he has ascribed me, but this is me now in my rightful place in Nineveh proclaiming his truth in season and out of season.  You cannot build a life on the strength of your will, you cannot live life by strength of your understanding.  This is not your final resting place…you are striving with the wrong thing, strive to be at peace with yourself, with your fellowmen and with your God.  The word of the Lord says that God holds us in the palm of his hands, and no man can pluck us out, but it doesn’t say that we can’t jump out of his hand.  I can tell you from experience…not faith, that when God is working for you, there is no sense of understanding on your part, because you’re not suppose to understand…you’re supposed to trust him.