If you find yourself living in a closet of mental anguish, I urge you to start cleaning now – and if you can’t do it for yourself, please call in the pros. There is no shame, and no charge, but the results will last an eternity.
In my field of work, we offer a service called HDC: Heavy Duty Cleaning. Many times we get telephone calls from a referral source telling us about a prospective client who is living in squalor. Our workers go out, make an assessment, and, if need be, make the recommendation for HDC. I would like to say that all our prospective clients are grateful, but many are not. Some of them actually enjoy living in their squalor. They enjoy the clutter. They say it keeps them connected to their past, and all too often, they will reject the service. That is sad for our clients, it is also sad for the worker who was only trying to be helpful.
I learn. I learn a lot. I learn from everything. At work many of my co-workers would say, “If Denise can’t find something in here, then nothing exists, because only she can find the hidden message in everything.” It is a gift. I prayed for it, and I received it. It is called a discerning spirit, and for me, it is a real blessing. It helps me to dig deeper, and go farther than I ever would without it, and to see results that most people wouldn’t even dare to dream of. I think of it as drilling for oil. If you know that oil exists beneath the earth’s surface, it doesn’t matter how long you have to drill – you’ll just keep drilling, because you know that sooner or later you will hit pay dirt. That’s the way it is for me. I’m waiting to hit pay dirt.
I am in the wilderness again, and this time I know why. I’m on a mission of mercy, a soul-saving mission for God.
Boy, I’m sure the devil is having issues today. You see, what man means for bad, God uses for Good, and God’s grace is sufficient. I am no longer fearful, but faithful. I know that the devil has no power, except that which is given by God, and I know that God will “never let my enemy triumph over me.” So, since, we are in agreement that Satan is my enemy – my archenemy, to be more factual, I know that my victory is sure because I am on the winning team. I am, without a doubt, a soldier in the army of the Lord, and I will continue to fight in His honor until the last day of eternity. When I read and write, it will always be to His glory and His honor. If the Lord is not lifted up, then the book is put down – period. I went to the bookstore one day after work and couldn’t find a thing worth reading, out of that came “When mothers of Salem.”
Every thing that I write has a story, tells a story, and is and of itself the story. I think, therefore I write; I hurt, therefore I write; I cry, therefore, I write; I am happy, therefore I write; I’m sad, therefore I write; I am lonely, therefore I write; I am with family or friends, therefore I write. I write because that is what I am called to do, WRITE. That is God’s gift to me, and my gift to mankind. A co-worker of mine once told me, “I am willing to bet that if you ever went to prison, not giving you pen and paper would be a worse punishment for you than putting you behind bars.” You know what? She was right.
I write with fervor, because I have a deep seeded spirit and writing helps me to put things into perspective. Sometimes I am called to share that spirit, and when I am so inspired, I will share what I write – Hence the title of my first book, PERSPECTIVES. I am a living, breathing, walking testimony of God’s grace, and His grace is sufficient. This is a resurrected body. This is a new being . . . anyone being in Christ, he is a new creation. Well, my friends, this person that you see here today; the person who is writing these words today, is indeed a new creation.
Dem (06/05/02)
Lifeline of Hope 